Wesley Corpus

It seems to me I ought to go, and that without delay. I think of going early in the morning to Bexley and correcting Mr. Piers's sermon, The elaborate care which they used in revising such deliverances may be seen from the Diary notes in Journal, ii. 387-8. and of setting out for Donnington on Wednesday. If you write thither as soon as you receive this, your letter will be there near as soon as me; and I will either go on into Lincolnshire for a week, or come straight to Bristol, as you will. Let all the brethren pray for me. Adieu! To his Brother Charles 2 LONDON, Saturday, July 31, 1742. Yesterday, about three in the afternoon, as soon as Intercession was ended, I went up to my mother. I found her pulse almost gone and her fingers dead; so that it was easy to see her spirit was on the wing for eternity. After using the Commendatory Prayer, I sat down on her bedside, and with three or four of our sisters sung a requiem to her parting soul. She continued in just the same way as my father was, struggling and gasping for life, though (as I could judge by several signs) perfectly sensible, till near four o'clock. I was then going to drink a dish o' tea, being faint and weary, when one called me again to the bedside. It was just four o'clock. She opened her eyes wide and fixed them upwards for a moment. Then the lids dropped, and the soul was set at liberty without one struggle or groan or sigh. My heart does not, and I am absolutely assured God does not condemn me for any want of duty toward her in any kind, except only that I have not reproved her so plainly and fully as I should have done. Absurdum, iniquum, injustum, supra omnem modum mihi videtur, quod quis isto modo me lacessat. 'Absurd, unfair, unjust beyond all measure it seems to me, that any one should attack me in that way.' Now, I would have you send me word immediately whom I shall take into the house, to keep the Accounts, c. c. c., in the room of T. Meyrick, and what woman as hired girl or a lady in place of Betty Brown. I wait your answer.